Monday, June 30, 2008

it's certainly been quite a while...

how can i describe the past month and a half.

confusing?
disheartening?
enlightening?
refreshing?
scary?
hard?
crushing?


probably all of the above.


these past few weeks have been very different for me from the months before them. from november(ish) to mid-april i was playing gigs like crazy. (now, when i say like crazy...that probably means about once or twice a week.) i was teaching lessons at the same time...so the weeks seemed somewhat busy.

but then i went through what i would like to dub a 'artist drought'. i wasn't playing very many gigs...in fact weeks would go by without unloading/loading gear into a venue even once. it was a really rough time for me. i started to question who i am as a artist. (and questioning for me has always been scary) during those weeks though, i wrote more than i've written in probably the past two years. most of it will only ever be heard by the walls of my basement...but some of it is good. so good, in fact, that i've been feeling the bite of the recording bug at my ankles...

must save money.


anywho...things have started to take a turn...and this month is going to be beyond jammed for me. i've got lessons every week (twice a week now) gigs on the 10, 11, 12, 14, 17, 18, 19, and i think 29th...i'll be going out of town TWICE (once for a wedding...once for music stuff)...


and in the meantime i will be thinking-it is not my gigs that make me a artist. while the gigs are nice...and help pay the bills, being a artist is so much more.

it's seeing colors more brilliantly, hearing the chirps of birds or the cry of a baby and not being annoyed, crying harder than you could ever dream, living life with friends that will last the rest of my life on earth (and after), traveling to places most people would deem irresponsible and a waste of time, smiling at a stranger whose face is overcome with doubt...


that is what it means to be a musician. to be an artist. to be who i was created to be.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

goals...goals...everywhere....

so.


a funny thing happened this week. and to be totally honest, i'm not really sure if i've gotten to the place yet where i quite understand what it is that actually did happen.

let's rewind to...oh, say...last september.


i was sitting down talking with my dad, hashing over what we could imagine the next few years of my life would look like. i mean...making the decision to be a full-time musician has so many options...and i just wanted to dream up all the possibilities.

well, the obvious was performing. recording an album. and then there was teaching lessons. maybe even a little jingle work here or there. singing at weddings. and, if i had my dream wish...i'd tour with some fantastic musician...opening for them and then singing background vocals during their set. (singing harmony is my first love...)

my dad then asked me a question: 'jess, if you could open for any musician, who would it be'? i sat there for a second, not wanting to give a hasty answer...and really thought over people who i thought i could honestly play music with. my answer: 'levi weaver'. i had seen him play with imogen heap about a year and a half earlier...and fell in love with the honesty that he portrayed through his lyrics. he seemed to be a person who played music because it's what he knew he had to do...

and i told my dad that i would be honored if it someday worked out for me to open for him...


(fast forward to march-ish)

so, i found out levi was coming to omaha...WHAT?...and i just got very excited...omaha loves/needs good musicians to stop through and i was just very happy that i would be able to bring some of my friends to see him play.

(fast forward to monday)

well, as it turns out...a good friend of mine (and local musician) tim wildsmith was playing with levi both nights he was in town...so i figured...great! i'll get to see two great shows in one week. outstanding. i get to the show monday night...GREAT show by everyone involved (tim, levi, and skypiper)...and i end up finding out that tim and levi were supposed to play with another guy on wednesday night...but he ended up dropping out...

(so do you see where this is going?)

i texted tim and asked if they still needed someone to play with them on wednesday night...cause i would LOVE to play...turns out they did...tim said to come on down to barley street on wednesday...


(fast forward to wednesday night)

i opened for levi weaver.


so....rewind back to september...i've been performing around town regularly since october. finished my debut album. teaching lessons since january. just met with a guy about doing some jingle work. singing (and crying) at several weddings (even performing some of my own cheesy wedding music) :)

and now...i've opened for levi, a musician i greatly admire.


(so i guess all that's left now is to get on a nationally touring gig...and sing harmonies, of course)





jessicalindsey


(p.s. if you don't know about levi weaver or tim wildsmith...please go check out their myspaces...i promise, you won't be disappointed)


(disclaimer: levi...if you end up reading this in some way, shape, or form...it was so great to meet you...blessings on all you do with your music...and yes, it's true...i'm a HUGE fan of yours...)

Sunday, April 20, 2008

a little word of thanks.

so. in the process of making this project...i've come to realize that there are a lot of people who i should probably thank for all their help with everything. now...those of you that have the cd might have noticed that there was no traditional 'jessica would like to thank' section...

(if you don't have the cd...go to http://www.cdbaby.com/jessicalindsey...)

...that wasn't something i overlooked...i just didn't feel like i could fit it all on one little tiny section of liner notes...so...instead...you can find it here...until the end of time. (or until i decide to delete this blog...which will hopefully be never)

how does one even start this list? chronologically, perhaps?

my parents.
dad and mom. you two are, simply put, the absolute best parents on the face of the earth. you have encouraged me from as early as i can remember to follow my dreams. to dare to live an extraordinary life. to never settle. mom-thank you for suggesting i major in music instead of speech pathology that one night about eight years ago when i was giving christine a bath. you are aware that that is the reason i decided to really pursue music, right? i love you beyond words. dad-thank you for giving me the courage to believe in myself by believing in me when i couldn't. thank you for supporting me through this season in my life in more ways that i can even mention. you are, simply put, the best manager and sound guy i could have ever asked for. i love you!

my brother and sisters.
you guys are my lifeline. you see me day in and day out...makeup and no makeup...emotional or distant...and you love me probably more than i deserve to be loved at times. i honestly cannot wait to see all the places that we go in our lives...and the best part is...i know that we will remain friends for the rest of our lives. i love you three so much. thank you for letting me learn so much because of you.

matt and carolyn tobias.
wow. in the short nine months since this project started, you have become such an important part of my life. matt-thank you so much for all the work you put into this project. from helping me with musical direction on several of the songs...to gracing the tracks of the cd with your untouchable drumming abilities...to putting hours into making my songs come to life...to your willingness to continue playing with me...all i can say is thank you. you have played such an integral part in this whole process...i'm very much looking forward to the next time i get to step into your studio. carolyn- who would have known that through a recording process in your basement, you would come to be someone i have come to love and trust so much. your straightforward, no nonsense attitude towards life has changed the way i look at several things in my life. (and the movie nights are fun as well) i love you and your beautiful family so much. thank you guys for opening your house to a group of artists craving to know what our purpose is here on earth...

marc frieden, jason burkum, chris carmichael, steve packwood, and alli moehring.
you have all played very important roles in the process of this recording. thank you for your sacrifices and hard work. i very much look forward to making music with all of you in the future. you are some of the most talented musicians that i know. and working with you has been an honor.

westy foss.
other than my dad and mom...i think i can confidently say you are my biggest fan. thank you for your excitement when it comes to this project. you have already done so much in the way of helping with this project...(for goodness sake you came up with the name of the album!) thank you for all your support...it is felt quite strongly from all the way in nebraska!

doug van sloun at focus mastering, tim cich at bassline studio, and jamie massey at hey kidd! design.
even though i spent little time face to face with each of you-your work on this project cannot go unnoticed. without you this album certainly would not be complete. thank you so much for your investment into the album.

those who helped inspire the music that i make.
you may know it. you may not. but thank you for allowing me to be a part of your life experience in such a way that allowed me to create because of knowing you. i have learned many lessons in the short 24 years i've been alive...and good or bad they have allowed me to express myself through song. so thank you for being a part of my life. for letting me learn. for letting me make mistakes. for helping me to write the music that is on this project.

my friends who have helped in so many ways.
i could go on and on in this category. from giving me ideas for songs. to coming to each and every one of my shows (unless i double book). to coming to even just one of my shows. to listening to me play rough drafts. to allowing me to practice at all hours of the night in our apartment. to traveling over 400 miles to and from minnesota to come and work the merch table at the release (oh...and to hang out too, i guess) :). to coming to town for literally 12 hours to see me perform. to purchasing a cd even though you live in virginia and pennslyvania and colorado and all sorts of other random states all over the us...thank you for being my friend. you probably know this...but you mean more to me than most anything else. i love you.

my family all over the states.
thank you for loving me and my family so much! and for taking the time to watch the cd release via the live feed...what a crazy world we live in that that's actually a possibility. i love you all so much and cannot wait until the next time i get to see you.

you...the people i've come to know through the process of playing here in town.
you are so important to everything that is my music career. thank you for coming out to the numerous shows. for buying the cd (and the t-shirt). for telling your friends that live in germany about me. for supporting my future endeavors both here in town and where ever else life may take me. for putting one of my songs as your myspace profile song. i appreciate you all more than you can know. see you may 13th at myth? :)





my creator.
you have put music in my blood. in my lungs. in my being. my whole life is in dedication to you. may my life show even an ounce of the love you have shown me to those i come into contact with.






without all of you, i certainly would not have been able to do any of this.
i'm really looking forward to the next few years...i'm pretty sure there's going to be some very exciting things in store.


thank you from the bottom of my heart.

jessicalindsey

Sunday, April 6, 2008

i think this could feel a little bit like giving birth...and then sending your child off to kindergarten all in one day....

not that i would really know...but...if i had to guess...i would say that's probably a pretty accurate description...

last night was, of course, the cd release party.

so...of course there should probably be a blog...and i think i'm going to divide it into two sections.

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section one: the main event
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thursday morning i woke up unusually early (when i say early...i actually mean ten in the morning...which you must realize is early for an insomniac musician like myself). i went upstairs...and started to check my e-mail. my phone rang. it was one of my best friends who lives in virginia. we talk probably once or twice a week...so nothing seemed out of the ordinary. the first thing she brought up was the weather...asked what it was like in nebraska...and then proceeded to tell me that it was 70 degrees and beautiful at her house. we proceeded to plan out a way for her to get out of the office by telling her boss that she had errands to run...great scheme, right? turns out...the joke was on me...about twenty minutes later (while i'm still checking e-mails) my little sister points behind me and says "it's lauren". i, not knowing anyone named lauren in nebraska, was very confused. then she said it again. "it's lauren". and much to my surprise i turned around...and there she was...my friend from virginia. what a surprise. later that evening two more of my best friends showed up with my sister...ready to help me get excited for saturday night. i had lots of errands to run on friday...a tour of downtown omaha to my out of town friends...piano lessons to teach in bellevue...and band practice for three hours to get ready for the next night. and then...there was saturday.

the morning consisted of the usual stuff...followed by a panicked afternoon run to target to try and find the perfect necklace to wear to the show that night. (needless to say i didn't end up finding one) and then it was off to the airport to drop off lauren and pick up two more friends that would be coming into town for about 12 hours. after that...i headed off to PS collective to start setting up with my friends in tow. they set up a fantastic looking merch table...while i practiced with my bgvocalist and sound checked with the band. and right around 7:15...people started showing up...to my surprise...i never really got nervous (i attribute that to the fact that i've played like a million gigs in the past eight months...ok...maybe that's an exaggeration).
my good friend stephanie pilypaitis started the night off...even though she was super sick...and things looked to be off to a great start. my dad and brother even figured out a way to broadcast the concert live over the internet so family and friends from across the country could watch...fabulous!

to make it short and sweet: i got up and played three songs acoustic...and then was joined by the band (who are probably some of the most fantastic musicians i know) for the next ten songs. and let me tell you. that was probably the best forty five minutes of my musical career thus far...yes, there were a few slip-ups..but i LOVED every single second of it. especially playing 'why don't you' off the album and 'maybe i'll just wait'-which is one of the newest songs i've written. i'm pretty sure that the crowd LOVED 'i wanna hold your hand'...since pretty much every single person i talked to afterward said it was one of their favorites of the night. i finished up with three more acoustic songs...and then...mingled...packed up...and headed home.

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section two: where do i go from here
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i got home with my friends and family (everyone was totally beat from the festivities of the day) and pretty much right away my parents asked how i felt about the night. and about as soon as i opened my mouth...the tears started flowing. the night was over. this night that i had been planning for about six months. come and gone...in what literally seemed like the blink of an eye. and this night was, for me, very symbolic of the fact that now...my music is out there...for anyone and everyone to feel any way they'd like about it. to love it. (hopefully) to hate it. to pick it apart and analyze it. to let it change the way they view life. and i now have no control over that part of the equation. thankfully...my friend lj picked up on the situation and pulled me outside to get some air. well...i continued to cry...and babble...and just go on and on about how...this is it. i'm committed now. i can't just give up and decided..."well...i don't wanna do this music thing...it isn't practical...i'll just get a real job like everyone else". nope. i'm a musician now. for real. and tonight...writing that out...scares me like nothing else.

and what does any good real musician do after a fantastic show? taco bell run, of course. so my friends, sister and i ran to the bell to get some late dinner. and how does a real musician spend the rest of the evening/early morning after one of the best shows of her life? by watching a documentary on overweight dogs and cats in england and talking til three in the morning with one of her best friends...

really. would any respectable musician end the night any other way?


jessicalindsey

Thursday, March 13, 2008

the one that certainly didn't get away...

i had my first 'full band' gig with the new band tonight...

the guys are amazing. like. A-mazing. it was so much fun to be able to show my music with a full band playing behind me. (except for the fact that i wanted to see their faces the whole time we were playing)

it was a good crowd...at least for the first hour or so...then things dwindled down a bit...(but hey...anything beats playing to a bartender)

so...tonight was a success...now...there's the cd release to look forward to...


jessicalindsey

Monday, March 10, 2008

today...i make a promise to myself...

ok.

so...my career as a musician has been underway since...(let me see when my first gig was...)...june fifteenth of last year. so... a little under a year. i've had 37 'gigs'...a little more than one a week...which is pretty amazing to me.

and yet...i feel like i could be doing more.

i should be getting the cd in about a week and a half...the cd release is two weeks after that...and then i want to launch. i don't wanna be a musician who settles for a 9-5 to pay the bills and then hopes to get a gig once in a while. i want music to be my life.

i have quite a few ideas brewing in my mind. some of which i think could be amazing opportunities.

so, today i'm making a promise to myself. i want to squeeze every ounce of music out of my soul. whether it's performing. teaching. studying. learning. i want music to take me over. and i want to promise to myself...and you...to do this. starting tomorrow things are going to kick into high gear for me. (i hope)

i know i'll have up and down days...but i'm done sitting by and waiting for things to happen. i'm going to start MAKING them happen...



just you wait and see...



jessicalindsey

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

i'm sitting in the studio as we speak.

it's the final venture.

(other than dropping the cd off at the guys to duplicate it)


i'm sitting here listening to my cd run a real time copy to the 'master' version. this has been such an interesting process. i've learned a lot about what it means to make an album...(although i still feel i have so much more to learn).

tonight i'll be putting some of the songs on myspace. it's a really emotional experience. i feel like i'm putting myself out there for the whole world to find...and just waiting to see what will happen.

i don't know. i'm rambling now.

basically i just wanted to say:

the cd is being mastered at this moment.

it will be dropped off for duplication tomorrow.

and done by the 19th.







i'm at a loss for words.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

march 10th. (give or take a few days)

that's it.

the day.

the one i've been waiting for since the beginning of september.



it's the day i'll have 1,000 cds sitting in the basement next to my keyboard.
(well, hopefully...)


things are going well here in the great NE when it comes to music. i've been writing some new songs lately...about four in the past three weeks...and this last one...it's gonna be on my first full length...and i guarantee you that it is going to be my first single that takes the radio world by storm. (i'm trying to be a little optimistic here folks)

i've been having a fair amount of gigs in the past month and a half. at least one a week...which is great. people are starting to come to venues to see me...and keep asking when the cd is coming out, cause they'd "totally buy one". it's nice to know that people enjoy listening to you perform. i also started teaching lessons to some little kids last week. four lessons total (ages 4,6,8, and 10) and it's a blast. i think it's gonna be a challenge for me...mostly because...i'm teaching...piano lessons. for those of you that know me personally...you probably know that i graduated with a degree in vocal performance...so that's definitely my most comfortable instrument...piano being my secondary instrument...but they're all little ones, so all should be well.

i've also begun discussing some possible touring in the late summer/early fall with some musicians from here in town. talking with my producer/drummer about starting to play full band gigs. doing a lot of research on music law and self-employment...i feel like i've just begun to scratch the surface.



well, my friend...i'll be writing some more soon i'm sure...

(i'm playing a valentine's day party at a wine bar tomorrow night)


do what you love. where you love. with those you love.



jessicalindsey

Thursday, January 24, 2008

i've heard about some dreamers....

i am starting to catch the bug...


the future is looking really exciting for me...and i think for the first time i am starting to get really excited about it. i was talking with a friend tonight...who also happens to be a musician...and we got to dreaming about what could be ahead for us.

we want to make a difference...not only in the lives of those we come into contact with...but also in our own lives. we cannot and will not settle for mediocrity. we want the best of what we can achieve. we have this unique thing in front of us...we have freedom...very few responsibilities and commitments...so what's holding us back?


nothing.



(that's what is so exciting about the whole thing)


jessicalindsey

Monday, January 14, 2008

a little place called mosaic...

so,

these last few weeks have been very interesting for me. i feel as though my last blog skipmed on the details....and since blogs exist for one person to write every detail of their life and have another person read every detail i believe i shall share a little bit more of what my life is now...

well...on december 31st i quit my job at crane coffee...i then went up to minnesota (where some of my favorite people in the whole world reside) to celebrate new years eve and spend some time with friends and my sister. it was one of the best decisions i've made in a long time. it made it clear to me that i was headed in a different direction than i had been for the past eight months.

i came back to omaha on january 2nd and dubbed that my "first day" of work. and on that day i got two gigs booked...one at a wine tasting place and another at an outreach center/music venue called mosaic. i figured it a pretty good day.

the weird thing about this whole self-employment thing is that there is no one keeping you accountable on a day to day basis. like...i don't have to show up to work fifteen minutes early everyday...complete tasks on a task list that someone else made up...and do everything according to someone else's schedule. instead...i make my own schedule. if i wanna sleep in til eleven...well...i can do that. if i wanna stay up til three in the morning searching the endless abyss known as myspace for venues to play at and bands to become friends with....i can do that. if i want to play piano for hours on end and write new songs...guess what...i can do that too...

so, just this last saturday night i played at mosaic...and what an awesome thing it was. four "acts" got up and played...and each one was SO entirely different from the next. there was this kid named "vinal" who was probably like sixteen or seventeen that just got up and played his guitar...the next band was...i guess hardcore...there was screaming and loudness...so that's what i'd consider it. then came me...with mello vocals a piano in tow...followed by a band called "fate of angels" look them up on myspace...they're fantastic...the type of band i'd LOVE to sing background vocals for.

i'm also starting to teach lessons next monday through a studio here in town...and get this...i'll be teaching approximately 12 students...11 of which i'll be teaching piano...that's right...i said it...piano. i'll only have one voice student for now..which is fine...and all the piano students are beginners between the ages of 5 and 10...

pam may would be very proud:)


anyways...there's a more extensive update on life. ooo...and i'm also up for this thing called a momentum award through an organization called "indieheaven.com"...we'll see how that pans out...i was actually in the omaha world herald on sunday about it!


well...more to come next time...i suppose...


jessicalindsey




p.s. the recording is ALMOST done...just waiting on one more track from the strings guys in nashville, chris carmichael, and then it's mastering and artwork...


woot woot!

Monday, January 7, 2008

2008...here i come...

well hello there...


i'm finding myself not wanting to post this blog. it's very scary. here's the thing.


as of january 1st, 2008...


i'm offically self-employed.



i've been working on a coffee shop for the past eight months...and it just came to the point when i realized...this is not what i was created for...this is not my ultimate calling in life...while it was nice for a time...that time has come to an end.

so, here i am. jessica lindsey. learning what it means to be a musician. i've been booking gigs. working on my resume for teaching lessons. practicing. and just brainstorming all that it means to be a self-employed musician. there are so many options out there...and i know that it will be fun and challenging all at the same time exploring them.

so, in the days ahead...look for more than just blogs about gigs and recording...






(except i don't really know what all that "more" will be)


jessicalindsey